Ffolkes,
“When a man wants to murder a tiger he calls it sport;
when a tiger wants to murder him he calls it ferocity.”
~~ George Bernard Shaw ~~
The Tower of London from mid-Thames
Hajime…. I seem to have reached a plateau, where sitting for a few moments isn’t quite as painful as has been true for the past couple weeks. The process of healing has progressed slowly, as I was/am not entirely certain exactly how and what was injured in my lower back and hips. The symptoms have determined the treatment, as I’ve had to seek and discover ways of moving, and performing normal activities in new ways, to keep from making the pain excruciatingly debilitating. The movements I’ve discovered have told me a new story about what is going on, a story I don’t much like, so far….
What I’ve discovered, and will now discuss with my new Doc, is this: my spinal discs are toast, especially those in the lumbar region. In fact, they probably look like toast, with a grainy, brown, OLD look and feel to them, to go along with the degraded performance of their function. Maybe some peanut butter would help it hold together a little better; ya think? At any rate, I now must perform a new batch of research, to find out just what I CAN do, to improve what is basically an age-related condition, made worse by long-term over-use. Then, of course, comes the difficult part, the reconditioning, to make it strong again…. I have a feeling that may never happen to the degree I’d like to see….
This all bodes ill for writing. Though it seems to have stimulated a few of my poetry genes, it doesn’t much help when I cannot sit long enough to get the words out of my head, onto the screen, much less spend time perusing and editing, to work it into the shape it must assume to fit my inner vision. On the other hand, maybe it will improve my work, since I’ll have to be as efficient a I can, in order to get any of it down in the two or three paragraphs worth of time I can tolerate….
As you see, we’ve reached such a distinction; I’ll quit complaining, & get on with the rest of this, so I’ll have something to post, maybe even tomorrow… whenever THAT is. For now, let’s do this, just as if things were as they’ve always been around here… which, considering the state of disarray in which we find ourselves, is exactly the case….
I do have one good piece of news to relate in this milieu; there’s no rant today, at all. I don’t feel like recycling an old one, and I can’t sit long enough to create one. Hence, I’ll abstain, doing us all a small favor…. With that bonus fresh in mind, let’s get this slow on the toad….
Shall we pearl?….
“Anybody remotely interesting is mad, in some way or another.”
~~ Dr. Who ~~
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Gil Scott Heron
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I feel gritty, and real. Can’t get any more real than this…. Pretty gritty, too.
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Gil Scott Heron Live
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Neurons/Parade Rest
Forlorn, he thought, but, then,
no, not really so.
Old, sad, strong; polluted by time’s red pen.
Nowhere left, to be, nor to go.
Tricks, not treats, forever remote,
strike fear into hearts fettered in fog.
Biting deep, stinging, we simper by common rote,
mired eternally in such bilious bog.
Torturous vision, bloody, capitulates in duplicate;
don’t ask for whom the spell trolls.
Ambiguity is real, impossible to extricate,
that’s how it rocks, then rolls.
Spiteful instruments offer no respite, patently.
Filigree lacks properly significant doubt.
Alternative answers formulate motivation, elegantly,
portraying reality as a vulgar lout.
Poltroons, there’s a good word,
for idiotic farmers, enthusiasts who borrow
time, filled with the blood of a bird;
solitary, the trickster cannot follow.
Affable moments trip the light, fantastic;
salacious intimacies fill a shimmering bower.
Night falls, eventually, monastic;
eternity calls with irresistible power.
~~ gigoid ~~
8/11 – 8/15/2016
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Naked Pearls
Life at Large
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“I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over.
Out on the edge, you see all kinds of things you can’t see from the center.”
~~ Kurt Vonnegut ~~
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” It is Maya!
Dost thou not know her?
Illusion — dreams — phantoms.
But, to the wise, Maya is more.
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But, to the wise, Maya is more.
Look around:
All that thou see’st,
Trees and shrubs, The grass at thy feet,
All that walks or creeps,
All that flies from tree to tree,
All is unreal: All is Maya.
Our bodies, our limbs, our very thoughts.
We ourselves are slaves to Maya.
What remaineth? Who can say?
Love to the lover,
The child to the mother,
The song to the singer,
God to the worshipper;
These, wandering thro’ the world of Maya,
Are perchance shadows of that which is.”
~~ Holst, Savitri (based upon the sanskrit Mahabharata) ~~
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“Learn what you are and be such. “
~~ Pindar ~~
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Whether it’s the best of times or the worst of times,
it’s the only time we’ve got.
— Art Buchwald
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“I wanted a perfect ending …
Now I’ve learned, the hard way,
that some poems don’t rhyme,
and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it,
without knowing what’s going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity.”
~~ Gilda Radner ~~
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“Don’t it always seem to go
That you don’t know what you’ve got till its gone?”
~~ Joni Mitchell, “Pave Paradise” ~~
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“Don’t ask me where I’m going,
Just listen when I’m gone
And far away you’ll hear me singing softly to the dawn”
~~ Pippin ~~
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Such as it is, there ’tis. It’s been only three days since last posting, & it will be interesting to see if I get any traffic. I’ve been unable to visit my friends’ blogs much, which is necessary to maintain any sort of audience in blog-land. But, my last absence did produce a massive number of likes, perhaps a record for this blog, so, we’ll see what happens, and be happy with it…. I might even be able to answer some comments this time, since I can sit a little more…. we’ll see how that goes…. It is apparently going to take at least three days to put together enough material to post; I’m hoping it won’t be longer, but, only time will tell. Until I can do so again, y’all be well, and happy as you may….. I will be back, and, though I can’t say when; I will see y’all then…. Count on that….
Y’all take care out there,
and May the Metaphorse be with you;
Blessed Be, dearest Carole, Mark,Theresa, & Richy
and everyone else, too…
When I works, I works hard.
When I sits, I sits loose.
When I thinks, I falls asleep.
Which is Why….
Sometimes I sits and thinks,
and sometimes,
I just sits.
gigoid, the dubious
The *only* duly authorized Computer Curmudgeon.
PLEASE STOP READING THIS MESSAGE NOW.
“SCRAM!!!!!!!!!!”- Oscar the Grouch
À bientôt, mon cherí….
Sorry to hear about the back…it sucks large. But it is good to see you giving it the old college try…..my music of the day is Ibanez…the guitar is great mood enhancer…..take care of the bod…it is the only one you have…..hope to see you more….chuq
Thanks, my friend; I’m doing what I can to save what sanity I have left…. I’ll try to get by today sometime….
Be well, amigo….
gigoid
Take your time I just want to have you back…I miss your commentary….chq
Hope for the best for you my friend..
on what sounds like a deteriorating
condition of your lower spine as you describe it..
and no.. it’s nothing to be not too cautious about as
Ankylosing Spondylitis.. if it were/could be this condition is
certainly potentially catastrophic in impact as our therapist
whose husband was a college athlete
in his upper 50’s went without diagnosis
and with some back pain..
was walking in a Walmart
and literally crumbled to
the floor.. unexpected..
and is now
a partial
quadriplegic
with limited use
of arms after much
recovery now.. so yes..
good to get it checked out
thoroughly by your Doctor in case
it might be as serious as that.. happy to
see you back at any rate.. and nice to see
you writing here again.. friend gigoid.. and always
inspiring of course for more words that fluidly come
for me.. in the intelligence that knows nothing.. hehe..
as Sargent Schultz might say in German Army secret way..
for platoon hope to go with this too of course.. as the beat goeS on..
and on.. per.. as you quote.. here2..
“Don’t ask me where I’m going,
Just listen when I’m gone
And far away you’ll hear me
singing softly to the dawn”
~~ Pippin ~~
Words of last
morning before
evening
Dawn my
FriEnd..:)
“Learn what
you are and be such. “
~~ Pindar ~~
Jesus F. in Christ
for me at least that
took 53 years.. and
three more until now..
but that’s not too unusual..
the comic hero Hell Boy2
had the same comic
maturing issue too..
ugh..
but
i am iSREAL..;)
“Whether it’s the
best of times or the worst of times,
it’s the only time we’ve got.”
— Art Buchwald
No escape..
always best to
eat drink and merry
life the best we can..;)
“I wanted a perfect ending …
Now I’ve learned, the hard way,
that some poems don’t rhyme,
and some stories don’t have a
clear beginning, middle, and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it,
without knowing what’s going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity.”
~~ Gilda Radner ~~
I don’t suppose my therapist
husband would have wanted to
know his future at the beginning
of his last hurrah.. not knowing
is all the beauty of
life.. at least
to me too..
and hope when
possible is the tea
that steeps me higher..
’cause i can and will go higher
as long as long as be is now higher..
i’m not getting any younger except for the
essence of how i feel.. and is anything real
but essence.. ask a brick how it feels.. square
and hard.. without any doughnut feeling inside..;)
“Don’t it always seem to go
That you don’t know what you’ve got till its gone?”
~~ Joni Mitchell, “Pave Paradise” ~~
i know/feel this all too well after facing it on my last
death stand several times over.. and wanting to
die more than anything in the world.. now..
i love to live..
last
note
of my life now..
and epic will be
now real lonG..
as LovE LonG
as i can SinG
and DancE
this SonG
and even
feeL iT
one
more now..
and heHe.. no matter what..
it ain’t goin’ anyWhere for
short now his is no longer
the flesh and blood world
this is online.. where nothing
rots… not even flesh.. as long
as servers.. serve it up.. for free as free
may never die another day.. in essence and
form the same my friend.. when organic enough to SinG..
and that is why i leaf sMiLes that last.. as forevernow IS A long now now..
and a tree
that kNows
FeeLs
no frost
iN WiNter
of killing leaves..:)
Thanks, my FRiEnD…. for the words of empathy. Don’t have long to reply, as I’m on my way to hydrotherapy in the tub… seems to work best to reduce the inflammation. New adjustments to be made; fortunately, my learning curve for that is short. As you note, the deeper lessons have taken longer…. but, got some of them down now, too, as I’m not dismayed so much as annoyed by all this, and will NOT let it keep me from doing what I want to do….
See ya; the water calls….
Love
gigoid
Yes my
Friend.. DO
What you
Want
To DO..:)
‘thumbs up, soldier!’ -cap’n america
Hi.. Thanks..
My FriEnd.. ‘M’..:)
😄