‘Til the last strawberry jams….


“In those whom I like, I can find no common denominator;
in those whom I love I can: they all make me laugh.”

~~ W. H. Auden ~~

PK Leelu 2

“There’s shredding to be done.”

Leelu in full PK Mode, no flash

Hajime…. I was up rather late, for me, reading and re-blogging the post you saw if you stopped by yesterday, or, today before posting this Pearl. Since I was up late, I naturally over-slept my usual time to arise, thus throwing my schedule, and, Leelu’s morning time completely off the track. I’ve given her some time, to settle her down from the change, and she’s watching the traffic through her window seat, monitoring all the threats she perceives, & keeping watch while I type.

Routine thus re-established, at least, in her mind, I now sit to finish today’s mess…. To keep the mess from growing too much too fast, I’ll make this another short intro, with no nonsense beyond what we’ve already been subjected to, thus, hopefully, gaining back a few of the points we lost in over-sleeping…. Or, maybe it’s the other way around. I don’t know right now, too damn fuzzy, still. I’m going to grab one of the Tardis toys to get us going, & leave the rest to chance…. In fact, let’s do that now, ‘kay? Okay!…..

Shall we Pearl?….

“If I do not do it now, when shall I do it?”

~~ Dogen Zenji ~~


Dont keep calm

    Yesterday, a blog I follow posted a rather nice poem the author wrote, as an inspirational message for a friend, whose relative had been diagnosed with cancer. It made me think, naturally, of my own father, and brother. My father died of the disease in 1985; my brother is currently about a month from completing a cure, comprised solely of the consumption of essential oils of cannabis. He was diagnosed with one of the most virulent forms, lymphatic cancer, but, the steady diet of natural substances is working as advertised…. though not by anyone in the broken medical model we have available to the general public…. or, our own government, which has known of this cure since 1974.

Watch the video; do your own research. Watch any of the thousands of videos from people who have cured themselves. Then, spread the word, and watch the world turn to anarchy for a time, until those who have caused over 100 million unnecessary deaths worldwide, all for the sake of the trillions of dollars they have made off the people’s misery, have all been torn to shreds by angry mobs of their relatives and loved ones, who have realized just how badly, and how long they have been listening to lies…. Or, keep it to yourself, and watch people die for no reason…. Up to you, as always….


Cannabis cures cancer…





le penseur-rodin

    The fresh piece upon which I’m working isn’t done, so, here is an odd, but, ultimately pretty good discussion from early days on WP, about two months after I began posting here…. I hope you enjoy it; I was still finding my rhythm, but, it shows promise of things to come…. Enjoy, if you please….

From 11/7/2011:


Skyclad before the pale, he sits to write his way into the day……and in an unprecedented move, he has brought his brain with him!…..

“In a real dark night of the soul
it is always three o’clock in the morning.”

~~ F. Scott Fitzgerald ~~

Have the claws of depression ever set themselves in your flesh, slicing their way into your conscious mind to fill it with diffuse anxiety and deep despair? Have you sat, alone in a dark room, and thought of all that you have lost? Does the sunshine make you angry for being so cheerful? When depression rears its ugly head and takes over the soul, the world loses all its color and warmth; everything you see is grey and shadowed, and somehow menacing. Being alone becomes a penance, a sentence for violations of natural law, and sleep is the only surcease from the crushing weight that weighs down the mind, and soul. All the goodness in the world seems far away, and unattainable by any effort we can make. Even hope becomes uncomfortable, because of the fear it will turn out to be false. Thoughts and feelings feel out of control, and the simplest tasks can become a challenge to your reduced level of functioning. Believe me when I say, being depressed is no picnic, and you still get the ants……

Having been a psychiatric technician for so long, I know the effects of depression very well, from both sides of the therapeutic relationship, having treated many depressed individuals, and having suffered its claws myself due to PTSD. It is a difficult condition to treat, from a therapist’s viewpoint, as it is difficult to help someone find the light when they want to sit in the dark, and close their eyes against the light. And from the other side, the negative filter through which a depressed individual views the world denies any possibility of change.

For  reasons which are still unclear, a person who becomes depressed is actually more comfortable in that state than they are when they are not influenced by its debilitating symptoms. And from having experienced it myself, I can tell you without hesitation that it is insidiously powerful, and incredibly hard to set aside in order to get back to a more stable mental state, one in which the world again becomes beautiful, the spirit once again takes flight, and life regains its attraction once more…….

“The sense of death is most in apprehension;
And the poor beetle, that we tread upon,
In corporal sufferance finds a pang as great
As when a giant dies.”

~~ William Shakespeare, Measure for Measure, Act iii, Sc. 1 ~~

I usually steer clear of using Shakespeare, as his work has been over-used, and IMHO is over-rated anyway. He did write a lot of beautiful passages, and should be considered as a master of the sonnet as well as the play. But I like this one, both for the creative beauty of his phrasing and structure, and for the idea behind it, which I see as a clear observation of the interconnectedness of all life-forms. We’re born, we live, and we die, thus completing the cycle of existence as per the natural laws of this universe (or at least as far as we know those laws…..). And every other creature on this planet goes through the same cycle of birth, life, death, birth, life, death, etc…, until one can only conclude that we must be alike in other ways as well, and are thereby connected in some fashion, both to the universe, and to each other.

This connection puts us all on the same level, at least in the eyes of the universe; no form of life escapes death. We humans, though intelligent, curious, and supremely adaptive to new environments, have no advantage over the tiniest creature on Earth, for we all will face our mortality in the end. Thus our sense of entitlement, of being the top of the food chain, is not justified, for we have no more power over death than the smallest, weakest life form in our world. Species discrimination based on intelligence is foolish; we must come to terms with our own mortality and accept our position in the universe, not above other forms of life, but shoulder to shoulder. We may as well, because we’re going to die anyway; it’s best to try to approach it with some dignity based on fact, rather than unjustified delusion…..

“If you can’t say somethin’ nice, don’t say nothin’ at all.”

~~ Thumper (1942) ~~

Bill Russell, the former professional basketball player, is considered by most fans to be the best defensive player ever to play the game. He played the game with studied intensity, and with complete dignity, approaching the contests with the same attitude he approached life. He was a proponent of the above attitude, one we all learned as a child, watching Bambi and Thumper inflict their terminal cuteness on unsuspecting children in a theater near you. And, as far as it goes, it is a good piece of advice, well worth considering, and useful in teaching manners. But, as with any childish conclusion, it doesn’t go quite far enough. But Bill said this, “One should play the game as a gentleman, always. But, there are times when an elbow to the chops is the only way to make a point.” (My apologies to Bill, as the quote is a paraphrase, the original being unavailable to check for accuracy; the point it makes is intact)

Yes, being nice to each other is the best way to approach living with others; not speaking never got anyone into trouble over what they said.  But the rules for behavior amongst ourselves need to be very flexible, and subject to revision moment by moment. There are too many facets to the human mind to ever consider limiting one’s choices of how to react to any particular situation. This is reinforced by the nature of reality, i.e. constant unpredictable changes are normal, so once again, limiting how we choose to act is an inappropriate response, and doomed to failure. As a human, we need to embrace that part of us that is flexible, and creative, in order to have the best chance of dealing with reality while still staying sane……

Speaking of sanity, keeping mine is going to require some work today, so I’ll be off now to pursue other activities, reluctantly. I will leave you with the following thoughts…..

“All men are poets at heart”

~~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~~


“All poets are mad”

~~ Robert Burton ~~



    Someday, Leelu and I will be going to Ireland together, to spend quite a bit of time exploring the land, the people, and the culture…. She, no doubt, will be satisfied to be able to explore the land part, and, a few people…. This poem, written before I had ever been there, tells why I’m returning, in large part…. I hope you enjoy it….

Days and Nights of Eire

Comforting, a dream creeps oft into my mind
On the elven hills of Eire lives the vision I find.
Elegant, gracious, everlastingly draped in beauty
Just payment of simple homage lives as joyous duty.

Fairies and druids walk abroad in ghostly parade
Gracing each hearth with its own welcoming shade.
Castles and heroes yet live in tale and song
Proving love for the land in each heart strong.

From cold of winter into glorious young spring
Brown, and gray, to emerald green songs to sing
Soft rains always follow winter’s great tempest
Eire dons its emerald coat from east to west.

Old and strong, connections call out in dreams
Nothing that was known remains as it seems.
Immersion in ancient runes and battle hymns
Offering sanity in place of grievous whims.

Time and place can tell a much different tale
Judgment should never be a final sale.
Yet something solid and real calls me to go see
Where dreams of loving beauty may actually be….

~~ gigoid ~~




Classic 7-star Pearl

Life at Large


“A man may love a paradox
without either losing his wit or his honesty.”

~~ Emerson ~~


“Genius is nothing more than childhood,
recaptured at will.”

~~ Charles Baudelaire ~~


“I am one, my liege,
Whom the vile blows and buffets of the world
Have so incensed that I am reckless what
I do to spite the world.”

~~ William Shakespeare, Macbeth. Act iii, Sc. 1 ~~


“Curiosity will conquer fear even more than bravery will.”

~~ James Stephens ~~


There is no heroic poem in the world but is at bottom a biography,
the life of a man; also it may be said, there is no life of a man,
faithfully recorded, but is a heroic poem of its sort, rhymed or unrhymed.

~~ Thomas Carlyle ~~

~~ Sir Walter Scott, London and Westminster Review, 1838 ~~


“The want of goods is easily repaired,
but the poverty of the soul is irreparable.”

~~ Michel de Montaigne ~~


“A man cannot speak but he judges himself
…no man thoroughly understands a truth
until he has contended against it.”

~~ Emerson ~~


Well, it’s done, which pleases Leelu, if nobody else, but for me. I’m glad, too, because it’s a busy day ’round these parts, with stuff to do out in the BBR that can’t be put off…. On that cryptic, but, non-mysterious note, I’ll bid thee adieu, until I can pull it together enough to do this again…. Odds are, that will be tomorrow, unless something drastic takes place to prevent it…. Not bloody likely…..

Y’all take care out there,
and May the Metaphorse be with you;
Blessed Be, dearest Carole, Mark,Theresa, & Richy
and everyone else, too…

When I works, I works hard.
When I sits, I sits loose.
When I thinks, I falls asleep.

Which is Why….

Sometimes I sits and thinks,
   and sometimes,
I just sits.

gigoid, the dubious

The *only* duly authorized Computer Curmudgeon.


“SCRAM!!!!!!!!!!”- Oscar the Grouch


À bientôt, mon cherí….


10 thoughts on “‘Til the last strawberry jams….

  1. Depression sucks…..I slipped into it when I was told my leg would never be 100% and since I was a very active person it caught me flat footed….what help me was my Baby Girl, my dog, came to live with me….she refused to let me be all into myself….and I owe her a debt I cannot repay…..I agree our boy Will is over quoted……have a good day my friend…..chuq

    • chuq,

      It does, indeed, suck, big time. I wrote that piece shortly after my own dog, Noah, passed on at age 17.8 years…. Hence, having to fight it off alone… Now, Leelu serves the same function, as my reason to carry on; duty is duty, once chosen…. and, love makes it easy to fulfill….

      Have a good one, bro; I’ll be by to comment eventually; busy day today. SS hit the bank, so, gotta go spend some to get Leelu what she needs….

      See ya


  2. Learning to Love iT aLL
    and chances are
    one WiLL Love
    LiGht of Joy..
    Finding Balance
    surfing Life.. most
    importantly sharinG iT
    WitH the rest of Nature..:)

    i can write an infinite number
    of odes to Joy.. as i’ve been
    to the other place
    of no hope..
    faith in
    or Belief iN
    anything at aLL
    the black hole
    Sun of
    BUT a dARK
    foRce back to
    liGht briGhter
    than ever before
    as a star shiNinG
    briGhTly iN human
    form as liGht flows now..:)

    (insert E,W, & Fire song here..;)

    A major roadblock to joy is
    syntax and semantics.. tribal
    language holds on form
    instead of essence..
    prayer is real and
    works when shared
    and believed.. the Placebo
    effect in science proves this
    with no doubt.. but true science
    also shows only a third of folks
    get a benefit.. so no.. prayer
    doesn’t always
    as not all
    folks have the
    ability to alter the
    course of their lives
    with believing positive
    stuff.. however as always
    change is possible and that
    is where hope comes in and
    for those who have success
    with the placebo effect of
    prayer that is REALLY
    REAL AND no less
    magical with
    a science
    for the
    same essence
    OR NOT.. and yes.. the
    opposite evil of the
    ‘Nocebo effect’ is
    as real
    as bringing
    on negative impacts
    of life with downward thoughts
    as any voodoo that any so-called
    witch doctor can do.. and yes they
    harm.. vs.. white magic witch doctors
    help with the placebo effect.. just
    another way of cognitive
    behavioral therapy
    where the
    self of
    learns to
    guide as relative
    free WiLL for positive
    change.. in life always
    now.. through just doing
    it with action.. reading
    a book is not
    life takes
    NOT WELL AS WELL.. now
    And that’s the simple pArt
    of Joy.. wHere iT really gets complicated
    iS the pArt wHere if ya really wanna stay happy
    ya never leave bootcamp.. as a military metaphor
    for folks like me.. who started off way too weak
    to serve the ’cause to protect Liberty
    and Justice for all in the freest
    ways possible.. yea sure
    when it works out
    that way
    on a
    Level.. but anyway..
    Nature and Human Joy
    Spells constant and unrelenting
    work as a practice of becoming
    fearless and loving too.. like
    Cinderella or fella in
    Kind and courage..
    the now modern
    version applies
    as well too..
    there are no
    shortcut to lasting
    balance.. peace
    and joy in life..
    it takes a soldier
    of Love to be Hero iN
    God’s world that’s Nature
    ONE.. is just not a place
    for folks who do not
    want to fight
    for survival
    and joy
    in the
    most peaceful
    way possible.. which
    for me.. is basically the
    way of a Yogi.. however
    there are no Loving Yogi’s
    who will not insist on coming
    down from the mountain of human
    balance in bliss of heaven’s nirvana
    now.. not to bRinG other humans UP..
    UNless a Yogi.. goes the black hole
    sun way.. now.. and refuses
    to shine the lamp
    for others
    to find
    way too..
    anyway.. i have
    many privileges in life..
    and curses as well.. i know
    little.. FEELING what works for me..
    but i share.. ’cause yeah.. NOW..
    i can irrefutably
    well what
    works for me
    does.. it ain’t
    free my friend..
    gigoid.. on earth
    for now at least..
    i Live as Leaves of
    Grass.. GRains of Sand
    and Oceans that flow
    across shores with
    no boundaries..
    and there is no
    wheRe i WiLL go welcome
    or not.. that i will not now learn
    something to share in the joy of
    liFe.. both liGht and
    dArk as it is
    ALL REAL..
    sAMe as

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